Feb 28, 2015

Rant.. like never before..

I hate that my first proper post for 2015 is gonna be so negative, but alas, since I promised to stop posting on FB to someone very dear to me, less it be misunderstood by people who are so freaking sensitive and childish, I need to turn somewhere to express my frustrations on this matter. So hear me out.

Many times people just don’t get it. And unfortunately the society condones and exacerbate this too . Your profession or occupation doesn’t make you special or important; it only tells people that you are (book) smart. It is a person’s character and behaviors that define a person. So what if you are a doctor? A manager? Or a pharmacist? It only tells people that you can study or had the opportunity to study. Why do people think that they are great just because they work in a big company or is a professional like accountants or lawyers? It is just a job that you happen to be qualified for. It says absolutely NOTHING about you as a person. GOD/Allah/Buddha doesn’t care if you are a manager in a big company or a dentist. CEOs, lawyers and accountants, like everyone else, get sick and/or get into accidents too. And in my books, those who think they are great just because of their occupation/post don’t even qualify as ‘decent’. I pity them for the rude shock they suffer when they realized that the world doesn’t give a shit about the position stated on their name cards.

For someone who has yet to start work but already think that she is so bloody great just because she graduated from a ‘supposedly’ prestigious university (which in real fact not even listed in any top 100 Universities’ lists) and a ‘respectable’ course (aka pharmacy), she has much more to learn. She has yet to work a day as a pharmacist-in-training, much less earn her pharmacist license, but already she thinks she is above everyone and deserved to be treated as VIP. Pharmacists are a dime a dozen in this country, just like doctors. Maybe at home she is pampered as she is the youngest and only daughter. Maybe all her family and relatives give in to her every time. Maybe she is treated as a princess at home. But hello ‘Princess’, life is a bitch and just wait for this dog-eat-dog world to get a taste of you. Overly-sensitive, overly-protected and unbelievably childish -- a lethal combination for a major rude awakening in the future! I for one am looking forward to the day her sheltered life is shattered and she realized the painful truth that only her family thinks she is ‘special’ in any way. Because frankly, no one else gives a damn. She could be the Queen of England or earn billions for all I care, but if she thinks that she is greater than the rest of us, then she is no friend, much less a relative of mine.

It is just laughable how small and pathetic their world is. Just because her prick of a brother graduated from a SG university (hey, me too), is working in a MNC (hey, I did too), earns SG dollars (hey, I earn Euro!) and seems to know lots (hey, can he beat a PhD? Or someone who had lived in 4 countries and travel/see so much more?), whatever he says is gospel to her. That fella only comes home a few times a year, doesn’t give any money to their parents, doesn’t take care of the elders in the family, doesn’t help in any way except to stir up chaos, disputes and bitterness wherever he goes. He might be working for some big company in SG (which seems to carry a lot of weight in this little town), in my eyes he is nothing but a troublemaking egoistic jerk. As for her, I have never seen such a naïve and immature person in my life! But again, I don’t mix much cos I wanted to avoid such dumb bitches in the first place. Can’t wait till she sees what this ruthless brutal world is going to do to her. It is gonna swallow her whole and spit her out without a second glance. Just hope that she has the inner strength, which I highly doubt she possesses, to put herself back together again. The same goes with that ass of a brother of hers.

And I will say one last thing: Her brother’s arrogance and her naivety shall be their downfall one day. It is just the eventuality of it happening, as I do not doubt its possibility. When it does, I will be there laughing and cheering when they are pulled off their high horses and fall flat on their faces. I shall relish the day and will most definitely rub it in when that happens. I really hope that we do NOT become relatives. I absolutely do not want to be associated with such people much less be relatives with them.

I regretted treating her as my little sis and henceforth she is nothing to me. Had not felt so much rage and anger for a very long time. It is bad for my health. Thus, this shall be the last ranting I am gonna make cos these are taking up way too much of my precious time. Like I always say, “Life is too short, ignore all morons”.

End note:
What I’ve written might seem harsh and overly critical, but I stand by every single word. Will I regret what I’ve just written? Maybe, in the far far far future, but the emotions and feelings I felt right now have to be vented. Will things turn out okay in the end? I don’t know but I learned one thing all these year, ‘never say never’. Will things be back to what it used to be? DEFINTELY NO. That I can say for sure. I will keep my distance from this family from now onwards. As I have nothing but contempt, loathing and pity for this family, I do not foresee being chummy with anyone of them, now or in the future.

Feb 2, 2015

back for CNY

Yep, I'm back in Msia for CNY. :)

Unlike previous years, I won't be helping my parents with CNY preparations or cookie-making. I'm with my sister helping her out at her clinic. We do plan to make some simple cookies but 'plan' is the keyword here. Not too sure how much cookies we'll be able to make after an entire day's work. Anyway, we are going to try.

Was planning to visit my godson in Singapore end of this month, but couldn't get any bus tix so I had to cancel my plans.. Was looking forward to meet up with some friends and ex-colleagues too.. oh well.. looks like I will need to wait a year or two before being able spending some time with my godson.. :( Haven't hugged him since 2009, although I've seen him many times through video chats..

Anyway, I will be in Malaysia till end of the month before flying back to Taiwan on Mar 01. Time flies when you are having fun... :) :)

Jan 10, 2015

Poetry Solace: aimless love

This poem is taken from a poetry collection (book) of the same name by Billy Collins. This will be the last poem that I'll share from this poet. I usually prefer short(er) poems but this is one of the few longs ones that I like. Hope you'll like it too..

Aimless Love
This morning as I walked along the lakeshore,
I fell in love with a wren
and later in the day with a mouse
the cat had dropped under the dining room table.

In the shadows of an autumn evening,
I fell for a seamstress
still at her machine in the tailor's window,
and later for a bowl of broth,
steam rising like smoke from a naval battle.

This is the best kind of love, I thought,
without recompense, without gifts,
or unkind words, without suspicion,
or silence on the telephone.

The love of the chestnut,
the jazz cap and one hand on the wheel.

No lust, no slam of the door --
the love of the miniature orange tree,
the clean white shirt, the hot evening shower,
the highway that cuts across Florida.

No waiting, no huffiness, or rancor --
just a twinge every now and then

for the wren who had built her nest
on a low branch overhanging the water
and for the dead mouse,
still dressed in its light brown suit.

But my heart is always propped up
in a field on its tripod,
ready for the next arrow.

After I carried the mouse by the tail
to a pile of leaves in the woods,
I found myself standing at the bathroom sink
gazing down affectionately at the soap,

so patient and soluble,
so at home in its pale green soap dish.
I could feel myself falling again
as I felt its turning in my wet hands
and caught the scent of lavender and stone.

Have a great weekend!

Dec 28, 2014

Sunday Serenade: one minute more

A few more days to 2015.. time flies, whether we like it or not.. This week I'm sharing this song by Capital Cities called One Minute More.. its lyrics is a reminder to us to not wait a minute more as the sun (continues to) shine.. Enjoy!

One minute more
Don't wait for an invitation
No need for reservation
This life is an exploration
And you gotta see what I see in you

I can't wait one minute more
The sun does shine (x2)
We can't wait one minute more
The sun does shine (x2)
[end of chorus]

Just think of a destination
I'll be your transportation
We'll find there's a kind of place
That can only be seen with the naked mind


There's a key that opens the door
Will you find and turn it?
Take your time, don't take too long
There's a map that's washed ashore
Will you find it and burn it?

Unleash your imagination
Two stars one constellation
Bright lights just to guide the way
Can you see, what I see in you?

[chorus] (x2)

Have a great New Year's Eve/Day party! Be safe..

Dec 27, 2014

Poetry Solace: a word about transitions

This week another poem from Billy Collins.. I like his poems because they are simple yet complex.. no need to think too deep about what kind of metaphor(s) he using and what he is trying to say.. yet his poems are not that literal.. Sometimes they are kinda light and funny like this one that I've chosen for you..

A Word About Transitions
Moreover is not a good way to begin a poem
though many start somewhere in the middle.

Secondly should not be placed
at the opening of your second stanza.

Furthermore should be regarded
as a word to avoid,

Aforementioned is rarely found
in poems at all and for good reason.

Most steer clear of notwithstanding
and the same goes for

nevertheless, however,
as a consequence, in any event,

and as we have seen in the previous chapters

Finally's appearance at the top 
of the final stanza is not going to help.

All of which suggests (another no-no)
that poems don't need to tell us where we are

or what is soon to come.
For example, the white bowl of lemons

on a table by a window
is fine all by itself

and, in conclusion, so are
seven elephants standing in the rain.

Have a fun post-Christmas weekend! Enjoy and stay safe!